My New Life

Before Ruby was born I had plans.

I had plans to go back to work.

I had plans to sleep train her. (Baby-wise)

I planned to move her into a crib at 1 month old. 

There were a lot of things I had planned and other things I swore I would never do. 

Ha. Ha. I laugh. I laugh looking back and thinking about how I thought I would be as a mom. 

There is this thing called mother's instinct: this is no joke my friends, this is the real stuff. Everyone thinks there was of parenting is the right way- their way or the highway. Well I am here to tell you- being a mother is different for everyone, I am not saying my way is perfect (it's really close though... Joking... Seriously I am joking, don't stop reading) but it works for Ruby, it works for me and it works for Reese.

Being a mom is my favorite thing in the world. Ever. I love it more than I ever imagined. I am not saying it is prefect. There is spit up, there are sleepless nights, I stay home a lot more now, my days revolve around nursing (I wore  a dress to church the other day- that was interesting come feeding time- that's a whole different story) , and getting stains out from clothes with baby poop on them (speaking of that- I have a magic way I am going to blog about- soon). My life has changed, but get ready for this- I love love love it! It is the hardest put most rewording thing I have ever done. Seriously- a little baby smile takes all of the not so glamorous things out of my mind completely. 

I have found I am a very attached parent. The thought of leaving Ruby to go out on a date makes me want to burst into tears. 

Ruby does one of those things I swore she would never ever do- she sleeps with us. We love it! It gives her dad some snuggle time and it gives me some good sleeping time. People might think we see crazy, all three of us crammed into a full sized bed and with a dog too- but we love it. I feel so close and cozy and I know she is safe. She sleeps sooo good with us. I love being able to sleep through the night! Don't knock it until you have tried it. ;)

She takes baths with me every night. She is so snuggly and smiley in the bath. I love bath time. 

She is growing up so fast. I don't want to miss one second of it. I look at her and cry sometimes because I know she will never be this little again, she changes so much in such a short time! I really truthfully think you cannot spoil a baby. They need all the love and nurturing they can get. Ruby loves attention, and she gets it. I don't want to look back and wish I would have slowed down to hold her more. I know when I look back I won't Remember the pile of laundry that needed to be done, or the dinner that needed to be made, or the low balance on the bank account- those things won't matter in the long run. 

I am so grateful to be able to soak in every second of my Ruby. I truly feel blessed. 

Slow down, enjoy life.